I hate having to wait

For something so-called great

I gotta dictate

I’m in a confused state

Apparently the future holds it all

That the best is yet to come.

I find it hard to believe

So l just put a limit to what I can achieve

Sitting here won’t make it happen

It’s my mind that refuses to let me take action

just need a distraction

What am I causing you dissatisfaction

Maybe I should act and smile a little more

Even while my mind and hearts at war

Put on a smile and walk through the day

Make sure nothing depressing is on display

It’s just not right for a girl to frown

Keep your head held high until you finally drown

Even when you draw

the girl in the picture looks pretty and has no flaws

Draw what you want to be and yearn

Then set it all on fire and watch it burn.

Because you’ll never be that girl

Bend over into the toilet and hurl

Personally I’m too weak to starve

But sometimes I’m brave enough to carve

Pretty pictures on my skin

Look at them I’ll never be that thin…